Monthly Archives: oktober 2007

Safety and Loneliness

Right now it’s 05:17 AM, my mother and sister are asleep and I just put a pizza in the oven, meanwhile I’m walking around in the darkness. For a couple of years now, whenever it was dark outside, and therefore dark inside the house, I have always felt safe, like dolphin being in the place it belongs to, the ocean. Like a black panther out in the night. However, along with that feeling of safety, I have also, for a long time, felt a strong sense of loneliness. Are these two feelings dependent upon each other? Is there no way to feel one, but not the other?

It’s not like I don’t have people to talk to, or friends for that matter, so I’m not lonely in that sense. Like with any strong feeling, it’s hard to describe with purely words.
Maybe this is one of those feelings, to which the answer lies in the depths of time. Earlier tonight I read some parts of a large article about Zen Buddhism, and a particular quote stood out: “If you don’t have patience, if you can’t endure, well, don’t bother, because you won’t get very far”.

Buddhism is the spiritual teaching that my ancestors sought guidance in life, from. Are they talking to me through myself? Whatever the case is, I’ll take the above quote as good advice, and of course remember it. Unless dramatic events intervene, my life ought to last for quite a while longer, so hopefully the many questions I have asked myself while awake and in my dream, will someday be answered.

Powered by Fedora!

Like I mentioned previously, as part of my ordering of the OpenBSD 4.2 CD-set, I also picked a Fedora laptop sticker. I thought it would be nice to have a nice replacement for the Windows sticker, which I ripped off, tortured and burned, like I did to Windows itself.

This is what the sticker looks like:

Fedora sticker

Here’s a shot of it sitting on my ThinkPad X31 laptop:

Fedora sticker #1

And here’s a close-up showing how bad my photography skills suck:

Fedora sticker #2

Ouch! Something spiky was in the mail this morning!

I was just out emptying the snailmailbox (Try saying that three times in a row! 😛 ), and low and behold! My pre-ordered OpenBSD 4.2 CD-set was sitting in there, along with a tiny Fedora laptop sticker which I have been wanting for a while (I’ll post a picture of later).

OpenBSD 4.2 CD-set #1

On the 7th I pre-ordered a 4.2 CD-set for a couple of reasons. Of course, the obvious one is to support OpenBSD and the work they do, and also this week is my autumn holiday, which means no school and very little sleep for an entire week! 😛
In other words, the perfect time to get that damned DNS server, that I have been wanting to get going, installed and set up! A few weeks ago, I bought a Dell OptiPlex GX150 (The small form-factor desktop case model) for the purpose. I have a Linksys WRT54GL router running DD-WRT, but Dnsmasq wasn’t quite cutting it for me.

OpenBSD 4.2 CD-set #2

So I wanted a full fledged DNS server using the Berkeley Internet Name Daemon (BIND). Unfortunately the delivery of the CD-set suffered a few delays (Snailmai is just total ass!), and not wanting to wait for it, I just downloaded all the source code and built a system release myself. Which was fun, I mean now I have tried that too, and it did work! 😀
Anyway, I think I have my DNS server running, although a few kinks in the configuration of reverse lookups remains to be sorted out, this is the first time I try setting up BIND, and so far it’s going pretty good, thanks to a pretty great tutorial that I ran into: OpenBSD as a domain name server.

OpenBSD 4.2 CD-set #3

“How long, how long must we sing this song?”

“Brigadier Nanayakkara said six were killed and one was wounded. Two more are missing.
Hours later, an army tractor sent to collect the casualties hit a landmine and another soldier was killed and three more were wounded.

Meanwhile, there has been heavy fighting in the north too.
The military claims to have killed 24 rebels in battles around the frontlines that divide rebel and government held areas. One soldier was also killed.”

Source: Sri Lankan soldiers die in clash

Like U2 says in their song Sunday Bloody Sunday:

I can’t believe the news today
I can’t close my eyes and make it go away.
How long, how long must we sing this song?

And goes on to say:

There’s many lost, but tell me who has won?
The trenches dug within our hearts
And mothers, children, brothers, sisters

And towards the end:

And today the millions cry
We eat and drink while tomorrow they die.

Sunday Bloody Sunday is a song by U2 written in 1983, it’s lyrics describe the horrible experiences of an observer of violence in Northern Ireland.
In a terrible irony of history of history, it’s written in the same year as the civil war on Sri Lanka was initiated, and describes those events frighteningly accurate as well.
The conflict on Sri Lanka is semi-personal for me, because I was born there, and even though I was adopted to Denmark when I was between 4 and 5 months old, but I still feel deeply concerned about the people there, be they Tamils or Sinhalese.
Like Michael Jackson says in the song Black or White:

“If you’re thinking of being my brother it don’t matter if you’re black or white”

Which you can essentially apply to any sort of ethnicality.

An attack on one of us, is an attack on ALL of us!!!

Well, well, well, well! What do you know, Red Hat and Novell are being sued by a patent troll named “IP Innovation” (Which is a retarded name, because of the hypocrisy in it) for infringement of a patent on multiple workspaces, just one day after Steve Ballmer, once again, started on his patent racketeering parade.

I don’t know about you but if some random idiot shows up, and says to me that I should pay him or her money, even though they havn’t done shit for me, I just get pissed off!! Who in the freaking world are they to just come and say that I should pay them money!! What kind of retarded logic is that!!

And I don’t like being threatened either, that’s another thing that pisses me off! “Ohh you should pay me money so that I don’t sue you”, yeah I am so afraid! Mr. Ballmer, if you’re listening, I got some advice for ya: Get off the pipe and see a psychiatrist.

Anyway, as much as this is Microsoft being annoying as always, it also goes to demonstrate how completely idiotic the US patent system is. I mean the guy who came up with it clearly had his head too far up his ass, blocking oxygen circulation to allow him to think straight!

The patent that Red Hat and Novell are getting sued over was filed in 1987 by Xerox, now I am not an expert in this area, but aren’t patents of any sort only supposed to last like 18 or 20 years? I was born in 1988, and I’m 19 years old. What is going on here!!

Oh well, time to go to court I guess.

I was in a discussion about this mess on The Linux Link Tech Show forums earlier, and one of the guys were like: “I remember virtual desktops on my Amiga. The Amiga was developed around 1982 and sold in 1985. Hello prior art!! “.

If you know of more things, you ought to try and send it to Red Hat or something, because wasting more time that necessary on shit patent suits like this is just ridiculous.

Am I angry… YES!